blurry

hello someone out there

that i ain't gonna type your name here

because i wish you read me

and at least understand

everything gets so blurry

my puzzle that you've completed

splits into pieces

hands that you've ever held

gets so cold even in thirty degrees

my mind keeps you there

without my permission

wherever i go

your name's always popped out

our songs are played in the radio

all of our picture remains

hanging on the wall

stays in my gallery

too hard to be removed

i know you're going to forget

because i begged you to not

i know you're just going to fine

while i'm needing more oxygen

because i'm sinking

lost my ability

to swim

i'm losing my sight

the ocean fills my eyes

every time i see your name

i see your pictures

wishing you to be here

to hold me

to give me strength

to bare my pain

to wipe my tears

like you used to

i die a little bit

and a little more

if someday you miss me

need me to be in your side

to support everything you've been dreaming of

to make a big change to your life

i will be there

giving you strength and support

advice you may need

hold your hands

sending my power and pray through them

i promise

ap

I understand you've been hurt in the past

and this is my promise to you

that I will never be like your last

but instead your first and only

first one that you were with

that didn't leave you cold and lonely

first one that you were with

that has no intentions of doing you wrong

thought you had forgotten how to love

because its been so long

well, I'm here to change all of that

and bring the love and joy back

to a man broken hearted

and to finish what they started

to show him what being in love is really all about

so he can finally have something

to smile and laugh about

when I first met you

I knew that you were looking for a fresh start

looking for someone here to stay

who won't run off and leave with your heart

well, I'm here now

to love you unconditionally

right here by your side

and that's where I will always be

Sincerely,

A. D.

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Everything seems wrong to me right now. I can't. I can't handle them alone. I can't always be okay, because I will never. I can't stop wishing if there will be somebody who will see the broken pieces through my eyes, but I have been wishing all the time, and I'm tired. And you were the only hope, you are, but you don't. I wish I could tell you everything, but I don't want you to feel bad. I wish I was a sassy girl who can easily says what her feel-but not in a rough way like every sassy girls-so she doesn't have to feel these shits. So everybody will care with her pain. But I can't. I just can cover every feeling neatly so nobody will realize. I don't want to share my pain, because I want it to be felt by myself. I just want to be cared, and that's enough. I just want to hear a "I know you're not" statement when I say "I'm fine". I can't face the difference. I'm never be ready with changes. I know it sucks. It hurts. All of my "okay" isn't always real, if you let me to tell.